don't EVER let me lose this.

Since I've starting taking voice lessons and learning more about the technical side of singing, I've realized that my purpose for singing can become blurred. the reason why I starting singing in the first place was Him. God is my reason. To give back the talents He's blessed me with to serve and to be His light and to pray twice. Although I haven't lost this and I hope to never lose this, He always finds way to remind me.
I'm not saying the technical things i'm learning aren't important. Improving and realizing what I need to work on, being challenged is something that I've never really dealt with, and I've realized that I LOVE being challenged when it comes to music/singing. I know a lot of people don't get why I want to take lessons because I already know how to sing, but I just want to use my instrument to the best of my ability & use what God gave me. And it's something I've always wanted to do.

I gave permission to someone to kick me in the face if I ever lose sight of my reason.

For some reason I keep hearing "The Reason" by Hoobastank. And the reason is yooooooooooou. and the reason in yoooooooooooooooooooou!

my top 2

picks for American Idol, as of right now are:

Adam Lambert (understudy for Fiyero in Wicked):

As Long As You're Mine (WICKED!)


Dust in the Wind


I Can't Make You Love Me




he's LEGIT. and yes, he's gay. but damn, he can saaaang.


and although his vocals aren't as impressive as Adam, my number one choice for American Idol is Anoop Desai

Hollywood Week


I'll Make Love to You (He's in an acapella group)


My Love


man i <3 him. his talking voice sounds like Kumar! LAWL.

and the REAL reason why i love him is at his first audition he goes "My name is Anoop Desai, but Randy, you can call me 'Noop Dogg."
when he said that, i was like, "Okay that guy wins."

in the past 3 days

i applied for a job.
i got a call back.
i scheduled an interview.
i went to the interview.
and i got offered a job.

WHOA.
praise God.

now... what do i do?
the job is in Laguna beach. 3 hours a day, 5 days a week. pretty good pay.
on one hand: it's a job, it's money, it's experience, and it's related towards what i want to do. AND i'm not doing anything anyway.
on the other hand: it's FAR, it's only 3 hrs a day, and the pay isn't thaat much.

i'm pretty sure i'm going to take it. but i'm going to keep praying about it.

but wow! i'm so happy!